Friday, March 24, 2023

Sonnet Mapping

The map of me is not the same;                                     A quarter century built new roads to who I am.        

The destination a geography unchanged                   But Google Earth images read like an old trail cam.

Loving you more than the merciless sea.
My tears feed that interminable well,
Chalky white hyperosmolarity
Etching pathways, a GPS to hell.

Your hands once sure to find their way at night,
Can’t traverse the same lands upon the dawn. 
The paper atlas’ scale reads only half right
An X marked treasure never clearly drawn 

When young, pencil worked in our cartography
When old, we should trace those lines again with Sharpie. 

Thursday, March 23, 2023

The Unicorn of Dental Offices AKA Village Smile Care

 The Unicorn of Dental Practices AKA Village Smile Care Dr. Angela Cotey and Staff

If you are terrified of going to the dentist—traumatized by childhood experiences with dentists —and afraid of being scolded by judgmental dental staff, then you will cry in relief after a visit to Village Smile Care in Mt. Horeb, WI.

Dentist barbarism be gone.

From the moment you talk to Amanda about scheduling an appointment, you will know this trip to the dentist is going to be different. Amanda calmly discussed my needs. In this case, I needed a replacement filling for my front tooth. I spent a week researching local dentists before calling Village Smile Care. (BTW they have over 180 positive reviews—mostly 5 stars.) While Amanda was able to fit me in the same week, she also told me I could complete the paperwork online or in person the day of the appointment.

The paperwork is thorough and you should give yourself time to complete it. I finished it at 2:30AM because I was unable to sleep the night before my appointment due to abject fear.

From the outside, Village Smile Care is a graceful and well-maintained building with what appears to be natural stonework. The inside opens to an immaculate interior. I am not using hyperbole in this description. The waiting room features muted coastal colors with exceptionally comfortable furniture. The kind of furniture necessary to keep the kind of patients who are ready to bolt at the first sign of danger.

Smiling and welcoming at the front desk is Amanda.

Remember that dental receptionist who barely looked at you while demanding your driver’s license and insurance card?

Well, that’s not Amanda.

Amanda stood up and greeted me with a firm handshake, then she thanked me for completing the forms online. Like I mattered. Amanda understands Maya Angelou’s lesson that people remember how you make them feel.

Amanda makes you feel like this time at the dentist’s office will be different.

So far, so good. If nothing else, the first person I met was nice.

After a few minutes in the waiting room (with no irritating TV blaring), I was called by Ali. And when called, I do mean called by the name I had been asked for in the paperwork. Because, obviously, Village Smile Care has read Dale Carnegie’s book How to Win Friends and Influence People. As Carnegie writes and I paraphrase—the sweetest sound a person is be called by his/her own name. They asked how I would liked to be addressed, and then they did just that.

Ali took me back and told me where I could place my things. She got me seated and, then, referring to my paperwork again (like they actually read it) discussed step-by-step how the visit would proceed.

As an educator, this is important to me. For those not in the dental profession, it takes skill to educate a patient while not talking down to her. As someone with dentophobia (fear of the dentist), Ali’s calm demeanor in laying out what happened next was critical to allaying my fears.

Because Ali had read the paperwork, she provided me with earplugs to block out the sound that would disturb me. The same sounds from childhood that are the equivalent of sanding concrete.

Ali cared enough to pay attention. She cares.

When she completed the X-rays—and I should note here if your last dental visit was back in the stone ages where they used early torture devices to break open your face with an implement that made you gag—this is not that horror of the past.

She used a device the size of a stamp to get the images. No pain. No jaw-wrenching. It’s a brand new world of dentistry.

At that point, Dr. Angela Cotey came in and introduced herself. She shook my hand with a reassuring and comforting handshake. Dr. Cotey is most likely aware of research that shows “78.1% of patients want the physician to shake their hand, 50.4% want their first name used, and 56.4% want physicians to introduce themselves using their first and last names,” (JAMA— “An Evidence-Based Perspective on Greetings in Medical Encounters” by Gregory Makoul, PhD.; Amanda Zick, MA; Marianne Green, MD— Arch Intern Med. 2007;167 (11) 1172-1176.doi.10.1001/arch-inte.167.11.1172) I am including it here in the hopes that other practitioners can learn from Dr. Angela Cotey.

Dr. Cotey asked if I was comfortable and gave me the run through of how she would like to proceed. Then, she asked if I had any further questions before she started.

Throughout the work, she stopped several times to ask how I was doing and/or explain what was next. Because she knew the sounds bothered me, she made sure to let me know what kinds of sounds were about to occur.

Before she finished her work on my front tooth, she asked Ali to check the work to make sure it looked symmetrical. This may seem like a small detail. In fact, it is a major insight into Dr. Cotey’s personal character.

She treated Ali as a professional peer. By asking Ali’s opinion, Dr. Cotey showed that she valued Ali’s expertise. Collaborating with others and asking for input shows a high level of emotional intelligence.

Dr. Cotey went so far as doing extra work to smooth a bottom tooth could be affected by my wonky bite. She took the time to align it as best she could within the visit.

And let’s be fair. She knows that dentophobic patients may not be repeat customers. She has the foresight to care for what she can during that visit.

In far less time than it took to write this lengthy review, Dr. Cotey was finished.

She explained what we could do next. Thanked me for coming in and off she went.

Ali finished up by giving me a mirror, and I was relieved I no longer had a snaggletooth. The addition to my tooth looked seamlessly like the rest of my smile.

 I was able to pay right there with a detailed printout and the amount matched with Ali quoted before they started the work.

She scheduled my next visit right there. Yes, I made a follow up visit for a comprehensive exam. With great courtesy, she escorted me back to the front desk.

Seated at the front desk were Amanda and Dr. Cotey. Dr. Cotey stood up again and warmly grasped my hand.

I told them what a great experience it had been from start to finish. I told them how grateful I was by their treatment. I told them they were my heroes.

Call them heroes—or Unicorns—because Amanda, Ali, and Dr. Angela Cotey of Village Smile Care in Mt. Horeb, WI are legendary in the field of dentistry.


Wednesday, March 8, 2023

Ode to the Alcoholic

I love me an alcoholic. 

They’re my Favorite Kinda

Folks!


They’ll rip out all your innards,

and stitch you back

With jokes.


They’re funny.

Super, funny,


With their hateful venom

Lies.

Then question

your loyalty

with

Heavy slitted 

Eyes.


If only they could

fix you,

everything 

would be

aight.


But don’t worry 

what they said

that gutted you 

tonight, 


they won’t remember

it tomorrow. 

And 

(anyway)

That was before.

Lupine

 I’m not a wolf 

he said


I’m so good 

and kind


I’m here to 

help


myself


to your

soft throat


he didn’t look like a wolf


I didn’t see the red on the muzzle

Men Ain’t

 Men Ain't


I’m not who I used to be

Sacrificing what I want

Giving a diluted 

Version of me

All the hues muted

Always taking less

Always needing more

I’m not your Bella Donna 

Not your virgin whore

Answered all your calls

When you would ring

Return your texts

Star Trek speed that’s

Warped


And when I dig down deep

Archeologize where I’ve been

Swept the dirt he left

Confessed all my pseudo sin


Put it in a pile

Bound together with his

Acid tip

Every sharp rejoinder 

Tore me bit by bit


I know I’ll be alright 

Cuz men ain’t shit

Men ain’t shit


He left me

A desiccated form

Bound with linen lies

All my vital organs

In Canopic  jars


I know I’ll be alright 

Cuz men ain’t shit

Men ain’t shit


I’m not your Cleopatra 

Not rolling 

Outta rugs

for you


I’m your Woman

Pharaoh 

Who already

Sent you on your way

Keep on wandering 

in your wilderness

You

Snaking

little 

Bitch


I know I’ll be alright

She’ll be alright 

Cuz men ain’t shit

You ain’t shit

Covered you 

With  scars

from my 

Poison tits

Put my voodoo

On you

To save 

The next her

Witch 


Cuz men ain’t shit

You ain’t shit